The End of the Matter

Focus on the becoming the woman I want to be (my character) not what I want to achieve and accomplish. I have been focusing on what I want to do, instead of being the person that God has called me to be (which is for the most part, revealed in the Bible).

Romans 1:18-32...Depravity

I watched a short documentary on the genocide in Cambodia called The Conscience of Nhem En. It's about a photographer, Nhem En, who worked for the Khmer Rogue. He took portraits of 17,000 men, women, and children before they were needlessly tortured and slaughtered. Nhem En's rationale for what he did or didn't do is not surprising, considering his allegiance to Marxist thought. Marxism, the materialist belief that man is comparable to wood or an eggshell, is a spiritual force of evil. To quote Richard Wurmbrand, founder of The Voices of Martyrs, "Communist torturers often said, 'there is no God, no hereafter, no punishment of evil. We can do what we wish.'"

My heart ached for two individuals in the film in particular who lost their entire families. When a shop keeper near the start of the film lamented that he was the only one left...tears came. I thank God for the spirit of adoption and the family that believers in the Christ can gain.

My heart ached due to the injustice of the killings by Pol Pot's Khmer Rouge, and the complicity of bystanders. I felt peace when I remembered that there is no sin=wrong that will go unpunished ...whether in this life, in the Lake of Fire, or by the suffering and death endured by Christ for those who turn from their sins and trust in the resurrected Savior.

I sent the film Sometimes in April to a few people earlier this year. The following is an excerpt from a letter I sent with the film:

This happened in our lifetime. The bloodiest century in the history of mankind was the century of "progress".

Romans 1:18-32 depravity...the Holocaust, 60 million killed under Stalin in Russia and millions killed in China under Mao, and 20% of the population of Cambodia executed under Pol Pot, and 800,000 killed in Rwanda, 50 million in American abortion mills. There are countless other examples.

Lord, help us to trust in you without cowardliness to stand for Truth in the face of evil.

Scripture references: Romans 1:18-32, Psalm 8, Mark 3:31-35, Isaiah 58

Surrendering to the Kingdom of God

No one will ever know me as intimately as my Lord Jesus and conversely, I will never know anyone as well as I can know God, Abba Father. By faith in Jesus, I have forgiveness of sins and unrestricted access to God's mercy seat. The Holy Scriptures reveal God's glorious and unchanging character. The Holy Spirit is a wonderful counselor who transforms me into a new creation filled with love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, meekness, faith, temperance, and power to be a witness.

I was going to originally call this series, "Surrendering my heart to the Kingdom of God", but I have determined that everything must give way before the demands of the Kingdom of the triune and merciful God: Body, Soul (mind+will+emotions), and Spirit.

Scripture references: Jeremiah 1, Isaiah 56:1-8, Hebrews 1:3, John 14-16, Galatians 5, Matthew 6, Matthew 15:10-20, Romans 8

The Righteous are Bold as a Lion

Hot Coals to the Lips

Lord help me to be not rash with my mouth, and let not my heart be hasty to utter anything before God: for God is in heaven, and I upon earth: therefore let my words be few.

2009: God Knows Where I am and Where I am Going

1. He has a purpose for me
2. He is in control
3. He is not on vacation
4. He is sovereign (not wringing his hands)
5. His Word is without error and is fully dependable

2008 was incredibly challenging at times (deciding to end pursuit of Masters degree, Grandmother's cancer, spiritual battles) but there were some beautiful moments (Grandmother healed!, victory at Campus Harvest, seeing many of my friends overcome evil with good, wonderful marriages). I am called to the hope which is never fleeting. Thank God for love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control, and most supremely righteousness through faith in his son Jesus for which without I would surely perish.

My friend Jahan suggested a BSF for in-depth study of the Bible this year. I am unable to do it right now due to another commitment but her offer did quicken me to do in-depth study. I'm studying a chapter of Romans per week until the end of March.

Added two books to widget at the end of this page: Do Hard Things: A Teenage Rebellion Against Low Expectations and Pursuit of the Holy.

How was your 2008? What are your statements of faith for 2009?